Writing is the fun part of it. I'm completely aware, though, that I suck at sales but I continue to try because I don't have the money to shell out to a professional writing service that can make those pitches for me.
It's such tedious work. First, you have to research prospective markets. Then you have to narrow the ones you've chosen down based on their needs and wants. Then each and every single one of those places have different submission guidelines. You have to go through each one at a time and do it exactly how they want it done if you want a fair shot. And even then you always second guess yourself. Was the font right? Did you space it correctly? Did you catch all the typos and the grammar mistakes?
What's funny is when the story is finished, you couldn't be more excited. But then as you dig into the submission process, it's quite defeating and mentally taxing. I couldn't have been in more of a bad mood today as I read page after page of guidelines and requirements. That initial excitement was killed by the ever growing realization that I might never make it. It's just simply too much information and what I think is a great story, could be easily dismissed by query tired eyes.
It's been a year since I first started the project that I am querying. A year of my life poured into this one story, this one world, with characters who are real to me. It's the passion that keeps me going with it.
But that was my day today. In the midst of it all, I still have hope. People call me crazy and wonder why I would take so much rejection but I can't ever see myself doing anything in life but writing fiction and poetry. Even on these defeated days, I can't imagine my life without this passion. I just have to keep hoping that someone will bite.